her in mother by Rut Novyanti

Where I stand as little creature Wind blows my leaves It sways my crown I love to stand and live my life Every song I sing No one hears me Whereas, I always hear the bird sings And the wind hisses People say that a flower must be pretty I think I am, because I am a flower, too Nonetheless I think 'i' am wrong I am not like the red roses I am not a beautiful lily I am not a magnificent orchid I just stand up firmly on the earth Look for the sun and 'just' be a flower Look, I am seemed fresh! Notice me, I am also a beautiful flower Oh, come on, see me, I live stronger than the others Without a gardener, without him, who water and cut flowers Ah!  I am what I am, but I am not  I am a flower, with a sun   Sun-flower, yellow, must be big Must be strong, must be looked like a sun

I never know how to repair your car, I never know how to make a machine, I never understand how to use electrical things, My Dad Ah, I never know how to count the voltage Ah, I never get a good grade in physics and chemical things Ah, even I can't count as well as you in Mathematics, My Adorable man I am only a woman, Dad I am only a woman, Darling I know how to only say, "Ah, I know, I see.." even though actually I don't I know how to cook, I know how to write, And I know how to love you both. :) Rut Novyanti

Yes, my eyes are small Yes, my skin is yellow Yes, my hair is straight and long I never feel like the other I never know that you are envy I never think that I am better Please, stop judge us as the exclusive Stop talking about our badness Because I've already zipped my mouth to interfere you.

Clouds and Earth - Penelusuran Google : My love is like the clouds, move all the time around the earth, like I go, like I move. Yes, the earth is the one And I am the other No one notice me as the important one But still, I won't leave you Sometimes I sacrifice myself, hidden, not gone. But I make you sure, my love is like clouds, I can't stop loving you, even the threatened of the flash and the cyclone clouds never leave earth. Clouds protect earth from thunder, and clouds never leave earth. Indeed I am the other, but you can't live me There is no imagination to live without you, Ah!  This life needs us, please don't torture me Sun, as the owner of us,  He treats us unwell recently I am sad, because You'll get  very warm from him But, God still let me help you As your clouds,  This is my love for you. Sincerely, my dear Earth.

hypocrite : "Hate but I do love Looked full but hungry Hurry but I have to wait ...Cold but I feel so warm Rich but poor Water but I feel burnt Crowded but lonely Laughing but in heart crying So bright but dark inside" 'via Blog this'

Hati manusia tidak boleh tinggi-tinggi di taruh Kalau ketinggian, nanti ada gempa dikit, jatuh hancurnya berkeping-keping hilang sudah semua impi Otak manusia dan hati seperti pipa bersama mengalir tak ada yang lebih tinggi malah mesti lebih rendah hati RN

Jangan pernah datang meski sedetik pun Luka irisan ini belum sembuh Jangan kau datang sesaat saja kau lihat dan mendekat Luka basah ini serasa di rendam dalam air garam pekat Rut Novyanti

Di dalam kata kamu Itu ada aku Di dalam kata aku Juga ada kata kamu Hanya tambahkan sedikit kata saja Maka kita menjadi indah bersama Rut Novyanti (lagi)

When raining is stopped.. Rainbow is looked so wonderful.. However... When I look my life and all of you.. Rainbow is less colorful than our LIFE! Rut Novyanti

Caramu, matahari aku suka Gayamu, awan aku rindu.. Kadang jeda dan berpisah sesaat itu indah Menyejukkan dan membuat tidur lelap.. Seperti matahari terik menyinari dan tertutup awan putih yang membuat panas reda sesaat. =) rubenn :)

Beloved moon, do not be jealous I am not with you tonight, I just enjoy my love in study You are just the one, I am just not with you Only for a while, remember, no one can replace your place in my heart Rut Novyanti

Even you say you love me Even you show me how big your love is Even you express your love by you words Still I feel gloomy ,feel sad Not because the moon doesn't appear tonight But because you do not get what I feel tonight ~`RuBenn Novyanti

My eyes aren't like Owl's Which can see you in darkness My heart isn't like metallic element Which is so hard and heavy But, still I can see your heart because you set alight in my sight and you touch my heart with your purest heart softly and lightly Rut Novyanti

Rut Novyanti : 'via Blog this' I love my days! Most of them are beautiful :) Moreover when I see God as the image of my life.

Rut Novyanti : "From my eyes I see From my mind I think From my heart I feel From my mouth I shout From my hand I write Then I write my stanzas RN~" 'via Blog this'

Rut Novyanti : "Langit memang tak bisa berdusta Tentang ucapan hati berkata Lantas awan gelap,langit mendung Mataku terlelap, karena hatiku sedang murung " 'via Blog this'

Rut 'via Blog this' Mengapa lelaki saja banyak menjadi pahlawan Mengapa wanita tidak bisa bahkan jarang Wanita, dipandang sebelah mata Dianggap setengah manusia, binatang Dipikirannya hanya bisa menjadi objek Bukan karena mereka mau Menjadi alat kelepasan, hasrat dan nafsu Prajurit tentara, pahlawan, dan presiden Mesti ingat, sebelum menjadi pahlawan Sebelum menjadi jaya, membawa nama harum Ingatlah peluh darah wanita, berteriak sakit dan Tali pusar terikat mati di dalam perut selagi kandungan Yang memberi hidup makan Sembilan bulan Sebenarnya pahlawan tertinggi bukan mereka Mereka hanya ada karena ada yang melahirkan mereka Pahlawan yakni pahlawan wanita Jangan injak hak pahlawan itu, Para pahlawan yang tidak dipandang

Meski banyak yang bicara lain dimulut lain dihati Meski banyak yang tidak suka dengan perangai Meski banyak yang bicara tentangku ini itu Meski banyak yang tidak mau berkawan Meski dia itu berbeda dari yang biasanya Meski dia itu antik, terlihat sempurna dimataku Meski dia tahu apa pikiran yang tak karuan ini Meski dia mengerti betapa sulit aku ini Aku tak ingin dipuji baik Aku tak peduli biar anjing menggonggong Aku takkan menahan kafila berlalu Aku takkan lelah menapakkan kaki perlahan pasti Kawan-kawan, Ingat bahwa banyak jumlah itu bukan kemenanganmu Ingat bahwa sedikit manis itu ada, sedikit pula semutnya Karena semakin banyak gula yang akan banyak di gerumuti semut :)

Caramu, matahari aku suka Gayamu, awan aku rindu.. Kadang jeda dan berpisah sesaat itu indah Menyejukkan dan membuat tidur lelap.. Seperti matahari terik menyinari dan tertutup awan putih yang membuat panas reda sesaat.

The Sun's way I like The Clouds' style I miss The wind dances with cloud I wish Sometimes, break for a while it is beautiful Cool breeze makes me sleep tight Like the Sun light bright and cheer the earth and it's hidden behind the white clouds, hot is being warm then breez for the seconds.. :) Rut Novyanti ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Ruth's : 'via Blog this' kamu jangan bilang cinta kalau kamu tidak bisa memenuhi persyaratan cinta aku tidak bisa menerima hanya sekedar kata "Tjinta" Sayang, cinta bukan bingkisan Bukan hanya kiasan yang sementara menghiaskan Cinta itu kau bisa pertahankan Sampai kita dikemas nisan Atau tersapu bersama debu angin rutnovyantidarmawan

The Past tells me, reminds me to the bitterness and sores frighten me, yes scare me such evils' whispers on my ears My whole body can't be moved Scream out load hopes people look but yeah my gulf the problem or they are deaf? no they are not OH tell me, people your eyes are nice to mirror yourself your mouth always comment to others your hands just work for your ego Do you ever taste hell? Do you know how evils work? You don't know how hurt it is You don't know how this feeling is All evils work without commands They work, they look for who are weak, who are hopeless who have a problem in their life That the way you do to me I never even touch you I even never want to disturb you Please, go away from my life, Evils ! Please, stop talking behind my ears again ...

Hidup itu semasa lahir Hidup itu semasa bernafas Hidup itu semasa bergerak Hidup itu semasa berpikir Hidup itu semasa belajar Hidup itu semasa bekerja Hidup itu semasa beranakcucu Hidup itu semasa bersama Hidup itu sedih Hidup itu senang Hidup itu sendu Hidup itu tangisan Hidup itu perjuangan Hidup itu pedih Hidup itu lelah Hidup itu mati Hidup tidak selamanya Hidup tidak foya-foya Hidup tidak semaunya Hidup tidak santai-santai Hidup tidak gratis Hidup tidak lama Hidup tidak mudah Hidup tidak terduga masanya Hidup itu dari Mu Hidup itu dari Ibu Hidup itu dari darah Hidup itu dari nyawa Hidup itu dari jiwa Hidup itu dari daging Hidup itu dari dunia Hidup itu dari kekekalan Hiduplah sebaik-baiknya semasih hidup Hiduplah sebenar-benarnya semasih hidup Hiduplah sejujur-jujurnya semasih hidup Hiduplah sekeras-kerasnya semasih hidup Hiduplah dengan semangat semasih hidup Hiduplah dengan peluh keringat semasih bisa berpeluh Hiduplah tak percuma semasih kau diberi berkah dan ampun Hiduplah...

Ruth's : 'via Blog this' Cold Yes, we are Between one to another No one cares about the others Because one thing happen Between us that break our unity Because one different thinking We are being like that How can be stronger? If you think of your self How can we be the winner? If you are just being silent Our time is limited, Friends Only one a half years More we are together In this small beautiful city Some of us are moving to this city with hopes, we will have memories Dear 2008 friends.. Let's make the memories Indeed, all of us are different I am the individualist one He is the nationalist one The other are the busiest one We will cry together In the graduation moment Because we are an awesome one Although in the past we are separated We will not be a forgotten angkatan Even some of us are separated Like water and oil Whatever it is, we are still ONE It is dedicated to my beloved angkatan 2008'ers in ED UKSW Salatiga :)

Ruth's : 'via Blog this' I am a tree Yes, I am I have been moving around To find my new land To live and grow in my new earth Rut Novyanti Darmawan

I need to stop loving you And you also forget me must Don't hunt me Because I've already forgot you This is so long, it's my pride's sore It knifes my heart slowly But I swear forever I yearn to blank over you When you ready to leave me It's like I have roots on your land But I must let my roots out of your land My roots will set off to seek for the new land

Ruth's: My honey bee

Bee, so you are looked like. Like you in one package. Your voice is so noisy. When you hit me, I would be hurt. But, you are sweet as sweet as your honey, Honey. :rutnovyanti:

Laut tenang ku pandangi Dalamnya tak terselami Ingin melepaskan diri Di dalammu kuselami Tenangmu Menghanyutkanku Ku kembali ketepimu Dari jauh kulihatmu Bibirmu tak berhenti tenang Walau sesaat saja Terus berdesir Tak pernah kah kau lelah Entah ku pergi dari hadapanmu Lama tak jumpa pun Aku bisa rindu Kembali menyelamimu, pantaiku

Sedari dulu Ya, dahulu Tak pernah berpikir aku Sedikitpun tentang hatimu Oh, hidup ini sementara kasih Jangan kau tambah rasa pedih Sakit memang hidup ini Takkan ada yang seperti ini dua kali Sayang, kau sekarang sudah tiada Kuanggap kau masih tetap tertawa Aku melihat mu lega Walau tawamu sekarang tak pernah nyata

Useless, all of rubbish words I am bored of the 'plain' acts.. Ouch, a shard stuck in me again.. Bloody, more painful... smarting.. Oh! I'm a dimwit! Say to the heavens I demand poison to remedy my sore

Ketika melihat dia yang terbujur Kaku tak berkata Tak bergerak Tak bernafas Kenangan manis Ya, semanis dulu Pahit sekarang Inilah hidup Sejagat kerabat baik Menangis, merindukan kenangan lalu Menyesalkan kepergian Apa daya Apa kuat Apa kuasa Apa akan diucap Sekarang, mereka menangisiku, Tuhan Aku melihat, menangis aku Hatiku teriris-iris Mengapa aku? Hidupku masih kotor, Tuhan Tangan ku masih najis Pikiran ku masih menjijikan Mulutku masih sumpah serapah Aku ingin kembali Tuhan Aku ingin hidup lagi Aku ingin bernafas lagi Aku ingin memulai hidup baru Aku belum ingin ditangisi Aku belum siap Tuhan Aku tak ingin Ayahku meratapiku dan Ibuku menyesaliku Tak bisa kucoba lagi Tak bisa lagi aku kembali Menunggu ketakutan Tuhan akan bertitah pada Gabriel Menangis aku Gemetar aku, kutahu dosaku Tak ku bertobat dahulu Apakah upahku kelak Selamanya Bahagia... Atau ketakutan melihat gertak gigi Menangis selamanya, menangis kekal

You have been forgotten ... For months, you've Never been seen  You went away like a wretch Never look me back I have been alone I find someone Who could be the one Since you're gone Oh, you had sliced my heart How hurt it was I was leaving ya In the past But.. Why.. You come back again To me, to my life I'll never hope to see you again Even, you  still come... haunt me every second in my head

Once, I am just forlorn.. A fella came by... The stars smile in a dark sky I was mystified.. at that moment, I stared to the sky Why they always come when I feel gloomy My screams stopped This wounded heart's pacified Still, I am not abandoned.. I have sky,moon, the cherished stars and I have another lad  Just spend the sad- ppy night.... -Ruth Novyanti-

Do not let your hopes and wishes fade away so light... Like a red balloon... You look .... Star at the gorgeousness of the world, Fly so high in the sky.. Then fall down in a strange place... no path, with hopeless..

I was created not to be a fool and a loser. He has a great plan for me to survive in this life.

When I stand on the lips of the beach My feet are buried by the sands Many things make me excited.. The view of the beach The baby crabs, the shells.. The beautiful waves and the corals The waves keep pulling me Into the center of the sea I am more excited... The blue color of the sea make me happy, But, the water is above my knees If  I am in the center of the sea Everyone can't help me no more I will drown, and lost I have to run and swim- against the waves I still have chance to live Although the horrible condition of my life happens, that creates me to be a fighter of this life!

Lama tak kunjung lihat wajahmu Aku sangat mengingatmu Manisnya dirimu Lucunya dirimu Namun.. Aku tahu Kau... Tidak lagi bersamaku Hai jiwaku... Lihatlah diriku Yang sekian lama merasakan pilu Pagi sendu Malam kelabu Tanpa hadirmu Memberikan senyumanmu Yang manis padaku 

A little child is lovely You are cute you can't speak clearly your words are limited How can I be angry with you How can't I love you You are very small You are very talkative You just make me smile When I am sad You wipe my tears When I am crying You just say something like imagine you are an adult I can share my problem and you are listening my sharing Although I know you cannot understand what I exactly mean when I ask, "Do you understand what I am talking about?" you just smile and laugh "Surely I do not know" I will never be angry again then we both cheer up and laugh

They feel proud of wearing branded dresses Why? Why we should wear elegant dresses All expensive stuffs, glamour and famous Shopping that stuffs are wasting much money Then what? What you want to be after..... We were born naked, red, cute, beautiful We're born naked at the very first time Everyone'll be nude when death's coming Everything is left, nothing can be used All people in the world, rich, poor, bad, good... will be returned to be dusts, life's ended Lastly, no more high-priced clothes and dresses....

I have been writing poems since I have taken my poetry class. That is amazing, that would be my tool to share my feeling and sometimes share my opinion and thought :) I would like to share my own Sonnet. Sonnet is so popular as a part of poetry. But, the words and content and also the pattern is different :)

You are a mom Take care your children also your husband You are an extraordinary woman you are a good listener A real good advisor You are wise Arrange all many things and The schedule You are tough Taking care all of the stuff You are busy One thing That I think And I am sure about something You are strong Since you rely on Him Glad to know that you are okay God use you I pray for you Still remember the memory about you ahh, many appointments were made and canceled We cannot see one to another But I am happy Have such a special friend Like you I want to say, "Thank you, Happy Birthday to you and God bless you!" :) Love and Pray To: Beloved Ci Imelda Tjitra :0)

Our life is sinful Dirty Useless Porn Lying Corruption Free sex Stealing  Bribery Lustful Cheating Killing Prostitute Bad attitude In this circumstance is that possible to not do sins? Impossible!!

who are YOU? You created us so perfectly What you want me to be? You are big, we know that You are powerful, Yes you are. Your majesty.. Your dignity.. Your glory.. I lay down in the corner in my room I realize, I am unreasonably to be blessed I am praying I am begging I am crying Do not let me down, God Do not ever leave me alone, God Help me to hold and depend on YOU No one can help me No one can be trusted Everyone can be enemy Just You are my hope, only You.. my reason why I am here is to praise and serve You

Aku takut, aku ngeri.. Tolong!!!! Aku gemetar!!!! Teriak tolong, sekujur tubuh merasakan pilu sakit.. Yang lain diam saja Memang aku ini tontonan bagi kalian?! Bantu aku keluar dari kesakitan ini!! Cepat!!! Tak ada seorang yang beranjak Tak ada yang mendengarkanku Sujud aku, menangis aku Kesakitanku tak akan berakhir selamanya kesakitan yang tidak ada akhirnya Tuhan, tolong hamba-Mu ini.. Ia pun hanya diam Memandangku dengan tatapan duka Melihatku tak lagi berharap Sesalku, dosaku Kutanggung seorang diri Tak seorangpun menolongku saat ajal menjemput  - Ruth Novyanti -

I am white I clean from everything I smell so good There is a writer He wants to write something on me He does make me dirty When he fails writing on me He does not think How hurt he destroy me After using me, He throws me out He thinks I can be used no more he gets me in the trash I am nothing now I am a rubbish Mr.Writer, how can you do that to me? You used me to write Then you tear me apart to the trash And I am waiting -- To be burnt on fire, Thank you, Sir. you are successfully destroying me to be ashes -Ruth Novyanti-

Kata-kataku.. Hanya untukmu.. Berdasar dari lubuk hatiku Entah kamu berbeda.. Entah kamu salah .. Entah kamu lupa.. Kalau .. Hatiku galau... Sangat risau.. Saat dekat.. Saat Ingat.. Kau datang aku terpikat.. Hati ini ... Kini.. Meyakini... Aku cintaimu .. Dari dahulu.. Tanpa sepengetahuanmu.. --Ruth Novyanti--

I will help you to die earlier, Easier with my kitchen knife... I will stab your chest, Just right on your heart; Than you have to kill US, your family with the ashes from your bastard cigarettes! Dying because of smoking is spending a long, long time to be a corpse, honey! Let me help you to do your purpose.. Would you mind, Darling? Do you want to quit smoking? Or.. I will make you to stop breathing! Quit or Die - Ruth Novyanti

I will help you to die earlier, Easier with my kitchen knife... I will stab your chest, Just right on your heart; Than you have to kill US, your family with the ashes from your bastard cigarettes! Dying because of smoking is spending a long, long time to be a corpse, honey! Let me help you to do your purpose.. Would you mind, Darling? Do you want to quit smoking? Or.. I will make you to stop breathing! Quit or Die - Ruth Novyanti

Seorang anak bersama ibunya Terisak tangisannya Sang ibu seakan tak dengar Ia memunguti sampah  plastik "Mak, aku lapar." Ibu menjawab pelan, "Ya Nak, sebentar lagi.." Tangisan keras yang terdengar lagi.. Tak ada air mata, itu pun sudah kering Adakah yang perduli.. Adakah yang mencaci maki? Mati dan hidupnya Seperti dipermainkan oleh keadaan Lihat yang lain Foya-foya... Anak gelandangan hanya menangis Meminta makan, meminta sesuap nasi

What  are you? Do you have a heart-- a feeling? Even you never hear me Never understand me Your ears are deaf You are cold Your thought is illogical You are just silent You never say a word A meaningful word to me Your words are unspeakable.. My heart feels in grief You never feel That feeling... You are just silent You will never hold my hand Although I leave you alone Sayonara, My Dear...

Ruth's: Me and Night : "Night.. You are dark No one can see in you, Dear.. You are lonely, You need friends.. To be with you.. Night, I am with you, Every night, ..."

When we make mistake You are angry; You warn us We are afraid of you You just want us to be good We know well you, Dad, Mom Your anger.. Do not make us hate you we are all, we understand well you. Mom, we know ... You are tired... Looking for us till' us being adults Dad, We know... You are tired... Working hard to pay all of needs We know, We should obey... As you said... "Afraid of God- listen to us, My Children because we know the best." We know, Mom.. Dad.. We do love God, We do love you We know, all you want us to do. We know also.. That Mom, Dad.. Love us Ruth Novyanti

Night.. You are dark No one can see in you, Dear.. You are lonely, You need friends.. To be with you.. Night, I am with you, Every night, never leave you.. Sometimes you see me.. Sometimes you ignore me.. You hide me with your anger.. I am sad, No one can see me.. When you are angry and sad Please.. Let me make you smile.. To heal your heart.. I will make you smile.. And billion thousand people.. Would smile to you and me.. People love a night sky.. When we are being a couple.. A beautiful couple ever.. I wouldn't ever been seen.. In the morning.. I am just beautiful when you come, darling.. Night is not always scary Night is a beautiful dark More beautiful, when the night together with the stars! --Ruth Novyanti--

Dear sky.. Dear beauty.. Seeing you just remind me, about life, your colors are amazing. When you feel just normal, your blue color.. Your white clouds, decorate your silentness.. and your beautifulness when you are just sad, you are crying, then raining.. All your cloud friends, feel the same as yours, all colored dark.. When you are mad, you are screaming.. To tell all things in the earth.. Make them all feel afraid.. Just you,the powerful one.. But, the most beautiful thing, that you have, dear sky.. Your anger, your sadness, and madness only just a while, then you,smile again.. Your smile is so beautiful.. You named your own smile.. To remind people, that sky is so wonderful..moreover,if there are ''RAINBOW'' So, dear.. You do not be angry.. You are just looked beautiful with your smile.. Dear sky, dear beaut.. -Ruth Novyanti-

Berada di tengah pantai Pepohonan tertiup angin melambai Menambah suara ramai Menciptakan suasana santai Namun ada yang aneh terjadi Di sana kulihat sebuah bunga melati Dan sebilah belati... Kutemukan cintaku Mati Oh, cinta.. Sekarang ku tak lagi buta Kulihat secara nyata Kau tak lagi mencinta Ruth Novyanti

Being in the middle of the beach The trees waved in the wind Adding sound busy Creating a relaxed atmosphere But there is a strange place There I saw a jasmine flower And a dagger ... I found my love Dead Oh, love .. Now I no longer blind I saw significantly You no longer love Ruth Novyanti